Déjà vu = already seen.

I haven’t experienced the ‘Déjà vu’ feeling, yes it is very much a feeling, in quite some time. This evening it occurred as I compiled a document of members for the organization I work with. At some point between locating a bio of an Ambassador and slightly editing some context I felt like I was in a state of ‘Déjà vu’. It really took me for a loop, my immediate reach was to stop, put my hands over my face so as to cover it fully, take a deep breath and return to the present.

It wasn’t so much the feeling that caused such a reaction but the fact that I recalled the moment at which I had previously experienced the moment - it was in a dream, some months ago. Less than a year ago, probably when I was still in NY, I had a dream about being somewhere editing through bio’s and knowing that my name was on the list - as it is in this case. I was excited and nervous because all the other people on the list had so much experience and my bio read “university student” - as it mostly does at this point. In my dream I felt that I was part of something from larger than I could ever imagine and now that I am part of it, my dream seems more reality than imagination.

‘Déjà vu’ is “the experience of feeling sure that one has already witnessed or experienced a current situation, even though the exact circumstances of the previous encounter are uncertain and were perhaps imagined” (source: Wikipedia).

Did I experience Déjà vu? or something else? I know I experienced my situation in a dream so it is not up for debate, perhaps I experienced a more vivid type of Déjà vu… perhaps the lucid kind.

Either way, it freaked me out. I will tell my mother about this when I phone her later, she always finds something quirky to say when I tell her about my weird dreams / “feelings”.